Masterchef winner Julie Goodwin talks about nervous breakdown and why it hit rock bottom
Famous cook Julie Goodwin bravely opened up about her private hell, which saw her spend five weeks in a mental health facility.
The MasterChef winner and much-loved culinary personality shocked fans and listeners to her breakfast radio show in February when she revealed her long battle with depression and anxiety.
The mother-of-three, 49, shed light on her crippling nervous breakdown in an interview with The Project co-host Lisa Wilkinson, which airs Sunday night.
Her battle with depression was so severe that she could barely function, unable to eat or sleep.
âI ended up in the hospital after going through a massive episode of depression and anxiety and a lot of things that I couldn’t handleâ¦ It was a shock to me to land there,â Goodwin said in an overview of the segment.
Julie Goodwin has revealed that her husband Mick (pictured together) made the heartbreaking decision to admit him to hospital, unable to cope with his mental breakdown
âIt wasn’t just a feeling, it got physical. My hands were shaking so badly that I couldn’t put a fork full of food in my mouth. It was really quite scary. I wasn’t asleep.
Goodwin paid homage to her husband for 25 years when Wilkinson asked him what had saved her.
âI am very grateful to my husband Mick for making this decision (to go to the hospital)â¦ He just told me, I am not equipped to deal with what you are going through right now, and I ‘need help with this,’ Goodwin said.
âIf I hadn’t been taken there, I don’t know where I would be now.
“What I know from the very center of my soul is that he watches over me and his motivation is my well-being.”
Goodwin saw no light at the end of the tunnel during his darkest days.
The 2009 MasterChef winner (pictured) will talk about her battle with anxiety and depression in The Project on Sunday evening.
âThe joy was gone,â said Goodwin.
âI was stuck in a situation of my own creation and I couldn’t get out, I couldn’t see a way out. And it wasn’t that I didn’t want to be alive anymore, but I couldn’t figure out how to be alive.
“I just had desperate, dark, fake voices telling me the wrong things.”
Goodwin says she is now on the mend, thanks to the support of her husband and three sons.
âEveryone just came together and I guessâ¦ I just slowly, gradually improved,â Goodwin said.
– You know it wasn’t the end of the world. I’m not that important, I’m a cog in a wheel and we all need a break sometimes.
Julie Goodwin (photo by Poh Ling Yeow, MasterChef Season 1 finalist) rose to fame overnight when she won the cooking show’s first season in 2009
Goodwin accepted that his sanity “will always be a work in progress.”
The candid interview comes after she was recently forced to temporarily close her cooking school on the central New South Wales coast due to the coronavirus lockdown.
âI wish everyone health and safety in these uncertain times. At #juliesplace we are closing our doors for a little while. We are sad for our customers and our staff. We can’t wait to see you all on the other side of this surreal situation. We’ll always post recipes and fun things you can make at home, âGoodwin posted last month.
In February, Goodwin took to Facebook with a heart-wrenching letter explaining to listeners of his morning radio show ‘Rabbit and Julie Goodwin’ on Friday for reasons off the radar.
âDisappearing like that created difficulties for a lot of people. I have basically disappeared from my planned life, I have not fulfilled my obligations and I owe an explanation, âMs. Goodwin wrote.
“I just had desperate, dark, fake voices telling me the wrong things,” revealed the beloved kitchen and TV personality.
She revealed that she had struggled with depression and anxiety for many years.
âOn the surface, I know I don’t seem to be depressed or anxious. I refused it to myself for a long time and I certainly put a lot of energy into making it not obvious to the people around me.
âI’ve never been one of those brave people who can put these things out there for others to watch and comment on,â she wrote.
âBut this time around, the happy facade not only slipped a bit, it fell and shattered. And I find myself thinking, stuffing privacy. Let’s talk.’
She explained that when she started cooking school four years ago, alongside a breakfast radio show, her schedule was busy and she fought to stay on top.
âI changed my sleeping and social habits, I exercised and consulted counselors and hypnotherapists, I did my best to keep juggling and keep all those balls in. air, âshe said.
Julie Goodwin (pictured at Logies 2011) first revealed to fans in February that she struggled with depression and anxiety for many years.
The mother of three said six months ago that she decided to admit her mental health was not excellent and that she had been professionally diagnosed with depression and anxiety and had taken medication. medications.
At the end of 2019, Ms Goodwin announced that she would quit her Star radio show as of Easter in an attempt to rework her priorities.
Christmas 2019 was its breaking point.
âI was physically sick in my guts for weeks, my mouth and nose full of ulcers, my hands kept shaking. Emotionally, I had just been exhausted, âGoodwin wrote.
âAnxiety kept going through me like electricity. I felt like I was trapped under a damp woolen blanket and every movement was a huge effort.
âEventually it all got so bad that I had nothing left. No joy, no excitement. I couldn’t see anything impatiently, and putting a smile on my face involved remembering which muscles to use and organizing them properly.
Julie Goodwin (pictured left with finalist Poh Ling Yeow in the 2009 MasterChef final) says she has been accepted that her mental health “will always be a work in progress”
While Goodwin describes the experience as a shock, she says she learned some valuable lessons and got the help she so badly needed.
âBe as kind to yourself as you try to be to others,â she says.
âIf you are having difficulty, ask for help. Do it before you can no longer hear the logical voices, the clear, good voices. Do it before it’s too hard to see a way forward. If you aren’t doing it for yourself, do it for those who love you the most.
Goodwin rose to fame after winning MasterChef’s first season in 2009.
She has published several cookbooks and appeared in “I’m a Celebrity … Get Me Out of Here”.
She was fined $ 600 and her license suspended for six months after being caught driving while intoxicated in 2018.
For confidential support in Australia, contact LIFELINE on 13 11 14 and lifeline.org.au, or Suicide Call Back Service on 1300 659 467.