Charlotte Church feels bad for causing mum Maria mental breakdown when she ran away aged 16

Charlotte Church has confessed she felt bad after running away from home aged 16 following an argument with her mother Maria, who caught her smoking.

The singer, 35, claimed she “totally understood” the pain her parents still felt “needed to be free”, while filming the upcoming scenes for Kate Garraway’s Life Stories.

The fallout was so severe that the B&B owner suffered a nervous breakdown after the former child star refused to speak to him and his stepfather James for almost two years.

Candid: Charlotte Church confessed she felt bad after running away from home aged 16 following an argument with her mother Maria, who caught her smoking (pictured from 2005)

Charlotte candidly told Kate, “As far as I was concerned, I needed to be free.” I felt like I had to be that other eternally young and innocent little girl. I just had to cut ties.

The Crazy Chick singer went on to admit she didn’t feel guilty as she never believed in emotion, but was “so proud” that her mum supported her.

She told the Good Morning Britain presenter of her mother: ‘I think she is the fire and like a phoenix she came out of the flames.’

Looking out into the audience, an indulgent Maria said, “I love you. I love her, I’m so proud of her, we’ve been through so much… I love her in pieces, I love her in billions and billions.

Looking back: The singer, 35, claimed she

Looking back: The singer, 35, said she “totally understands” the pain her parents felt but “needed to be free”, while filming upcoming scenes for Kate Garraway’s Life Stories (LR : Charlotte and Maria in 1999)

Wild Child: Charlotte said, 'As far as I was concerned, I needed to be free.  I felt like I had to be that other eternally young and innocent little girl.  I just had to cut ties” (photo 2008)

Wild Child: Charlotte said, ‘As far as I was concerned, I needed to be free. I felt like I had to be that other eternally young and innocent little girl. I just had to cut ties” (photo 2008)

In a previously recorded clip shown to the public, she said: “It was like a pressure cooker, she felt like she had been so pent up for years and years and years, she just wanted to explode.”

“I felt lost, I felt isolated, I think I completely shut down, I literally sat on the floor and cried and had a nervous breakdown. For months and months and months I couldn’t get out of bed.

It comes after Charlotte revealed stardom at a young age tore her family apart during an appearance on This Morning.

The singer, dubbed the ‘voice of an angel’ when she shot to fame aged 11, has spoken of the ‘stress and pressure’ she and her family are under, including threats of kidnapping and mental health issues.

Tragic: The fallout was so severe that the B&B owner suffered a nervous breakdown after the former child star refused to speak to him and his stepfather James for almost two years

Tragic: The fallout was so severe that the B&B owner suffered a nervous breakdown after the former child star refused to speak to him and his stepfather James for almost two years

When shown a vintage clip of herself singing on the show, Charlotte said, “That part was amazing, we got to travel the world, we were just one family from the really normal working class and we were in this whole other world of glitz and glamor and a serious privilege.

The Masked Singer contestant also explained that finding fame was like a ‘pressure cooker’ on her family dynamic

She said: “I don’t think anything went wrong, it was like a pressure cooker…there were a few kidnapping plots when I was a kid, a lot of stress and pressure, we were going through in each other’s pockets.’

Open book: Charlotte said candidly to Kate: 'As far as I was concerned, I needed to be free.  I felt like I had to be that other eternally young and innocent little girl.  I just had to cut ties.

Open book: Charlotte said candidly to Kate: ‘As far as I was concerned, I needed to be free. I felt like I had to be that other eternally young and innocent little girl. I just had to cut ties.

Charlotte has previously spoken candidly about her mother’s battle with mental illness as she grew up.

In her darkest moments, Maria’s medical condition led her to excessive drinking and self-harm. Maria, who suffers from bipolar disorder, has also previously attempted suicide.

Opening up about the traumatic moment Charlotte left home, Maria said: ‘When Charlotte left home it was very, very brutal and very sudden, she broke my heart, I ended up have a nervous breakdown.

Adding that she is still in therapy, Maria added: “It’s the beginning but I’m trying to do something now, I’ve always suffered from mental health issues, mine are quite complex.”

Regret: The Crazy Chick singer went on to admit she didn't feel guilty as she never believed in emotion but was

Regret: The Crazy Chick singer went on to admit she didn’t feel guilty as she never believed in the emotion but was ‘so proud’ of her mum for putting up with it (pictured 2000)

“We stayed in Cardiff which was really important, if I had moved it to London I think that glitzy lifestyle might have gotten the better of us, but we still went back to our roots.”

The singer said the family had been “really nervous” about watching the documentary – which aired on October 17 – but it made her appreciate the impact fame had on her parents.

She said: “Looking back made me understand mum a little more, in a way that I didn’t think possible.” To really understand what this success cost my mom and dad and how crazy it must have been to go through this.

Maria added: “I’m incredibly proud of Charlotte and always will be.”

Invented: Looking out into the audience, an indulgent Maria said, “I love you.  I love her, I'm so proud of her, we've been through so much... I love her in pieces, I love her in billions and billions' (pictured in 2019)

Invented: Looking out into the audience, an indulgent Maria said, “I love you. I love her, I’m so proud of her, we’ve been through so much… I love her in pieces, I love her in billions and billions’ (pictured in 2019)

The former child star never really knew her biological father and was raised and adopted by James in 1999.

Charlotte shot to fame when she performed Andrew Lloyd Webber’s Pie Jesu on the phone on This Morning in 1997.

She went on to sell 10million records worldwide and has an estimated wealth of £10million, but has remained largely in the limelight in recent years.

Charlotte married musician Jonathan Powell, 32, in a secret ceremony surrounded by a few friends and family in 2017.

The couple then officially married at a registry office in Cardiff on October 2 with a handful of guests.

The classical singer – worth £9million – started dating Jonathan after splitting from former Welsh rugby star Gavin Henson, 37, who is the father of her two children.

The former couple are raising daughter Ruby, 12, and son Dexter, 10, together.

Kate Garraway’s Life Stories starring Charlotte Church airs Thursday at 9 p.m. on ITV and ITV Hub.

Loved: Charlotte married musician Jonathan Powell, 32, in a secret ceremony surrounded by a few friends and family in 2017 (pictured in 2015)

Loved: Charlotte married musician Jonathan Powell, 32, in a secret ceremony surrounded by a few friends and family in 2017 (pictured in 2015)

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